Darth Urra's Lair

Ok, so as far as I know I get bothered when my girlfriend, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, calls me. She figures that she is annoying me or taking time out of my BUSY schedule to talk to her! SHE IS MY SCHEDULE!

I mean It gets me so pissed and sad when I hear say stuff like "talking to me doesnt matter" or almost blatantly telling me she is a waste of my time! What the Fuck!?

She has bad days I'm sure, but we all have our shit-cycles and our bad expieriences...you need to take them and deal with them either privately or publicly (and that means you should let people help you! If you try and deal with it publicly and you push everyone away its CONFUSING AS HELL!)

I dont even know why I'm typing this shit out on MYSPACE, what the hell is wrong with me! lol I dont want to write in my journal because well I havent seen the thing in over 3 months (maybe more) its over at my love's house; we share a love journal...all the things we say and cant say to each other we write and we talk about our life and love in a 1st person format...not really write to anyone...it's quite cool...

This relationship is definately the hardest yet most satifying thing I have ever been through. I love her...with every part, inch, molecule everything i have and more if I can find it. But it seems nothing is ever enough...we fight ALL the FUCKin Time...over STUPID and MEANingLESS stuff that wont matter in 10 minutes let alone a year! We take too much to heart and not enough to the trash...we're too serious sometimes...

I want to spend my life with her...but if she cant respect herself, be comfortable in her own skin, or understnad how much i really care and how much I love her...then It'll be thrice as hard to carry on this relationship...

I dont want to lose at LIFE...and I'm not talking about the boardgame...