Darth Urra's Lair

6-18-07

If I dont matter, then how will my words be heard?
If the water never shows my reflection, how will it know I'm there?
I wonder how I can matter to someone else, to reach out and touch something.
To be treated like a ghost or to be casted out of the world you live in...hurts.

I start to think about the old riddle;
"If a tree falls and no one is around to hear it...does the tree make any noise?"
And then I ask myself, "Why would anyone want to be around a tree anyway?"
It seems funny now, but I am confused on whether to care or not.

Nothing ever matters enough in my second life, my second heart.
Everything is just under the bar of thought, or worry.
I shake my head often at the things I hear,
But I dont even know how to say what I mean myself.

I'm lost in sea of dreams, goals, emotions, stress, euphoria, happiness and pain.
I drown too often...and I'm saved more than I'd like to be.
I've been thrown a few life-preservers in my day, but the favorite one I have
Is named Amber, but it seems from wear and tear it's drowning too...