I am so lucky,..and happy
Current mood: peaceful

I really feel like I am so lucky,.and I know I am happy; much happier then i have felt in so long! Amber Baker, my love, the one I've searched for and have stumbled into, has made me feel so happy and calm. I can slmost float on a cloud, but reality is still with me,..and that keeps me in check.

I dont want to lose her,...at all! I want her near me, and next to me, and in my heart;...she's already stationed in my head,..always! I think about her and for her all the time,...I want her comfortable,..more comfortable then myself. It makes me feel good when I know she is happy,...and she says she's happy being with me ^_^.

I can see us growing older and still being close,...maybe even closer then we are now. I can be myself in fron of her, and not worry about what happens; but I do. I worry about the outcome of words, or the reactions I'll ge. But nothing has happend that could ever tear us apart,..and for that I gave fate a thumbs up.

This Fri. (Nov. 10, 2006) we had such a fun and exciting time. I had one of my Gaming Parties w/ Kenny King, Zach Motley, and Cody Sheets. She came up to see me and we never left the others sight. I made her feel special and I hope I can do that for a very long time. I want her to know that she has nothing to worry about,...but she has her own mind, and I encourage her to speak her mind as much as possible,...I love when she speaks, her voice is so sweet to my ears.

I sleep better and wake up more eagerly knowing I have someone special and loving waiting for me, and craving my attention and affection ,..and I cant be anymore willing to give them everything they want.

I love you Amber,...